Getting settled

Enjoy!

writen update to follow!

our good/bad news

Well the good news is that we are going to have Denali for Christmas and New Years. The bad news is that we will have two kids New Years instead of the planned one. Good news is that Darren is most likely going to be getting Denali for good. Bad news is how this blessed miracle came to be. Good news is that my mom will not have to cook this year for Thanksgiving. Bad news is that I will most likely be doing most of it. Good news is that it wont be in my kitchen. Bad news is that Emili might ask me to help clean up. Good news is that Uncle Ted is going home in a few days. Bad news is that menas Mom and Joe are leaving the day after Thanksgiving. Good news is that Nyali is getting so good at ripping up paper. Bad news is that I am the one that has to clean it all up. life is good though.

I hope that everyone has had a great Thanksgiving dinner!

Thanksgiving is coming up too soon!

This will be mine and Emili's first Thanksgiving were we cook ALL of the food. My mommy is not going to be there to make this turkey or the pies. Melissa you better be able to talk us through it. What is going to be really cool is that we are going to have Mom on webcam. Its exciting. Although we will miss her greatly, we are going to have a wonderful day. My mom and I went over how to make the turkey today. We wrote it all down and even have side notes. I will call her probably every 10-20 minutes to make sure we are doing the right things.

Nyali is doing well except for the upset tummy we think that she has. (kinda icky)-Her pooh is a little runny and a little too green. We shall see what it is going on with her. I have not go any pictures anymore. Sorry that I am being soo lazy with the pictures. Thanksgiving is going to be a story of pictures all their own!

My sunshine.

"You are my sunshine. My only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey. You'll never know dear how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away."

Last night I watched an episode of House. I really enjoy House and would recommend it to everyone I know. Well last night, the episode was about new born babies that were about to die. They were getting viruses and having seizures. It was so sad. Just the thought of Nyali being one of those babies just about crushed my heart. I cried as soon as the first baby started shaking. What would I have done if she had not made it this far, if she had been taken by SIDS or if her heart was faulty.

My daughter is my life and my heart would ache if anything seriously wrong happened to her. Every hair on her head is always in place and there is no scratch on her that I will/have ever miss. There was a day that she fell off the couch and that broke my heart. How had I let her fall? How could I have been so careless with such a fragile baby. I promised her an myself that I would not let her fall off of a couch or a bed. Nothing high enough off the ground to hurt her in anyway. She is my sunshine and I never want her to go away. I wont let anyone take my sunshine away.

Im the mother of sunshine. I am her atmosphere. I will keep her safe and hold her up forever.

unwilling...

There is a time in our lives when we look at the person to our right and wonder..."what is this all for?" Will they be there for me when I need them the most? Will they be willing to take care of me when I'm unable and others are unwilling.

My mother is taking it upon herself to take care of my uncle Ted. Ted is extremely over weight and can't walk. He is on a breathing and eating tube. This is my dads brother not hers. Pat, my dads sister, is pushing her away from helping him. Is there a certain reason why she is being this way? We are not sure.

My mom has so many things she needs to take care of for herself but instead she is going to leave her home to live in a place where she is not wanted. Selfless yes. She has the faith and the courage to do things that her body probably wont live through. There is no reason for her and her husband to say she cannot do this. Do they not know her at all? Well I know her and I am very proud of her and would not trade her for the world. If I could triad places whit her I would.

Here are some of the pictures I forgot the last time! ooops

Nyali was so excited about her new high chair that she about fell alseep in it. Bless her little heart! This was way too funny to even help her sit up some.

The first day we got to my moms, we set Nyali on my moms bed and she looked so funny next to Dopy and Grumpy. While trying to figure out where we were all going to sleep she found a great place amongst some new friends her size. She even wanted to share her Ugly Doll with Grumpy. He didn't seem so pleased about that. Ewww slobber he said!

We are having a great time. Its alot colder than San Diego but we will manage. We got her a walker today and she is starting to go backwards! Fun times are a comin'. Please some one save me. hehe

We are almost settled in.

My mom and dad are going to be leaving soon and I am not ssure what we are going to do without the two of them. I do know one thing though...Nyali will only have two parents not 4. Living with family is hard. Two of you want one thing and the other two have done this before and think differently about the things you want. Although it is in faith adn love in wich they tell us these things, I feel it my job and mine alone to decide what shall be done with my girl(Darren too I guess) j/k. Today was better because I had asked if we could not hold her so much. She was becoming too dependent omn being held all day and didn't want to be piut down EVER. 0I saw this as a battle I needed to win if I was ever to get her settled as well. Emili watched her yesterday and she did very well with her. Shocked as I was when Nyali was returned to my arms as healthy as when I had left her. No thats not true, I knew Emili would do everything in her power to make sure she was not in haerms way at all. Heres to you Emili.

We will be going out and looking for jobs this week...not looking forward to it either. We will do what we need in order to stay on our feet. As long as I have my family and their support that is all I will need from here on out. Thanks to you all that care so much!

The trip so far...

It has been a rough few days but we have made it 22 miles into South Carolina. If there is anyone that can say traveling with a 6 month old across the entire country is easy or fun, please give me a call. Nyali is always a gem while she is asleep but boy when she wakes up and is STILL in her car seat she lets us know she is angry. We are almost done and are very glad.

I miss my friends we made in Escondido. Little Teagan, Melissa and Zac, the Myers, Mason, Bethany and of course Jared. I will miss you all very much and hope that we can keep in contact. I want to know how the babes are doing and what new things they can do. I know Mason doesn't do much now but Bethany, you are gonna have your hands full. Melissa, I admire you for all you do during the day. Your home is always kept up and you are continuously cooking something amazing while Teagan is walking and getting into things. You amaze me.

Nyali has figured out how to roll onto her tummy and thinks its funny to grab onto our faces really tight. When we say ouch or something to that effect she gets such a big smile on her face. We will figure out how to have her be "gentle".

We had a long day today so I think I am going to turn in. Good night.

getting ready for the big move.

We are moving from California to South Carolina on Tuesday the 4th. I am extremely excited and can't wait. I am not excited however about the 4 day drive out there. I wish that it was only as far as Vegas. Now that drive I can handle. My wonderful little girl is a pain in my doopah! If only she would let daddy and I pack for more than 45 mnutes at a time.

In South Carolina we are going to be taking care of my mothrers house while they are in Tennessee taking care of my sick Uncle Ted. We will keep him in our thoughts. Maybe we will be abe to go up that way for Christmas if he is still here. :( Its sad that My dads brother spent his entire life taking care of his mom and now my mom and dad are going to take care of him. Darren adn I were even willing to go there our selves. That would have been interesting. Us taking care of a little baby and a grown man that needs just as much help as a little babe. We would have done it and not felt a single harsh feeling towards the situation whatsoever.

We surely will miss going to the beach. But then again we will live 3 blocks from the beach. That will be very relaxing to sit out on the swing in the front lawn and listen to the beach crashing against teh Carolina shore. There is just something about it that makes you appreciate life so much more. I will also miss my new friends, and Darrens sisters that live here in North County with us. We will see them again I know. I will be sure of it.

I have to decide tonight...

So Darren is in Utah right now and the job thing is not turning out well at all. My mom and dad have been talking about making us an offer to move us to her house in South Carolina. I mean it is an amazing offer, take over the house and only have to worry about the utilities and taking care of the house. While we are there we can find decent jobs to get back on our feet. On the other hand, we could move to Utah with rent utilities and car payments on top of no real job potential. If we went to Utah we would have no winter clothes, so therefore have to pay more money to stay warm. Yes South Carolina gets chilly but it doesn't snow there (which is great cuz we HATE snow). What I want to know is who thinks this a good decision or a bad one. Do I move my 5 month old to the other side or the country or just a few states over? So many things have to be thought about before we make up our minds.

It sucks because we just got married and we are already getting laid off at work and running out of money. I mean we didn't have a great amount before but now we are really living on the edge of bankrupt. I admire my friends Melissa and Zac. They budget so well and still seem to have everything they could ever need. For them there is now unnecessary over spending. They are happy! We can do it just as well (it will hurt but we will manage)!

Until next time!

Ohh my goodness oh my goodness

Yesterday (October 22, 2008) Melissa, Zack and Teagun along with Jerad, Bethany and Mason came over to carve pumpkins with me and Nyali. We had a really great time. While us girls cleaned out the goop from the inside the boys enjoyed the party snacks. Then it was the guys turn to carve while Melissa and Bethany discussed new baby trends. It was nice not to be alone yesterday afternoon. Darren is in Utah till Saturday looking into a job. Its not looking too good right now. Kelly Downes doesn't have anything for him. I am worried that come November we will both be out of jobs and moving in with parents. Im not saying that living with parents is really bad but it will be crowded and we already know what happens when everyone is too crowded. ;) Nyali woke up this morning at 5 and didn't go back to sleep till about 6. I am so confused as to why she is waking up hungry at night. I thought we were past all of that. I guess that we have a a little time still. I can't believe how big she is getting. Yesterday while mason was here she looked like a giant next to him. Well she is 5 months old now an Mason couldn't be more tha4 weeks so ya know. But next to Teagun she is so tiny.
Nyali is even trying really hard to sit up by herself. By November I think she will be sitting up on her own. We miss Darren very much today.
Until next time.